Kindergarten Crush

Hey everybody, Happy New Year!

I’ve been MIA for awhile due to some lovely anxiety that decided to wreak havoc on me after that nasty viral bronchitis.  At least I believe it’s been anxiety….it’s been quite a puzzle to figure out what the heck is sidelining me. I think I’ve finally determined the cause.

Right after Thanksgiving, I was diagnosed with viral bronchitis.  That $hit knocked me on me arse!  Usually, I am still quite active during an illness but this one felt like a time-warping gravitational pull confining me to the couch.  And I didn’t care.  See? THAT was the kicker.  I did not give a flying hooha about anyone, anything, any deadline, any paycheck, nothing.

After a few weeks, I finally felt well enough to start working out.   Two minutes on the elliptical, the chest pain returned and my energy level catapulted downward.  Around Christmas, I felt pretty good again however, the cold air here in Michigan left my chest hurting so I worked out but without the cardio.  Had to maintain the muscle or the 42-year-old body (monster) would start consuming it again .

December 26 I woke with a pain within the left side of my chest.  The pain radiated out toward my left arm.  Both of my parents have/had heart diseases. Obviously, I was pretty darn scared.  Couldn’t get into my doc due to the holidays so I saw his P.A. who ran an E.K.G. and declared my heart fine.  Whew!  Number 1 reason I work out is to avoid those heart issues.  My B.P. is always nice and low, cholesterol is excellent, etc.  Stress is usually my culprit.

I had to use deductive reasoning to figure this out.  You see, the pain didn’t stop, I couldn’t sleep and I was getting desperate to find the cause and alleviate the pain so I could rest.  My daughters and I moved here 1.5 years ago to be with my hubby.  My house is STILL up for sale and the window to sell is closing which means foreclosure/bankruptcy.

You must understand I have had to get a grip on stress when my first hubs died.  I had started developing Bell’s Palsy and high blood pressure.  My face tingled, my cheekbone ached and I felt like the world was spinning out of control.  Thankfully, I started running.  Between the physical activity and the funny mind-over-matter scenarios I imagined when I stressed, it’s been manageable.

It’s been 16 days and I still feel pain but I am resting better.  Not sleeping all night yet but I’m getting there.  I am convinced that the sudden stopping of my physical activity when I had bronchitis helped open the door for that sneaky criminal called Stress.  Never fear, I’m kicking him out after I knock out this next workout .